I’m not really sure how to start this. Beginnings are not my strong suit. in any case, this is something that has weighed on my mind for many years. And before anyone tells me I don’t understand and I need to be educated, kindly listen to what I have to say for a moment. please. I have suffered enough. (also, get some coffee. I like to make walls of text.)
Do you know the first thing I am tired of? the word. Depression. Definition: It’s like a bumpy hole in something. oh, it goes down here. It’s the same kind of ‘soft’ emotionally dead language that has become so prevalent of late. I don’t think I need to give any examples of that. And not only that, but you are treated like there is something fundamentally wrong with you and your brain for being sad.
“Oh, you’re malfunctioning. let us fix you. Just a few screws loose… there! all better. get back to work t5-86.” There is a cultral myth around chemicals in the brain and seratonin levels that if one actually does their own research you will find little evidence to support this. Furthermore, The funding for the research comes from the companies that make the drugs used to “cure” people! how’s that for neutral and fair? (any negative result is usually not published)
But enough about that. I’m tired of the attitude of shunning anything that isn’t all sunshine and daisies. The idea that something must be wrong with you if you feel tired and unmotivated. or that if you start to question ones existence that your need help. What a load of nonsense! “Why are we here?” “What’s the point to it all?” “Are we just going round in circles?” Am “I just a biological machine?” “Will everything we do fade to nothing when I die? why bother?”
And many other questions. There is nothing wrong with asking any of them. nothing wrong with looking into the darkness and seeing what lies beyond. Nobody ever dared to answer those questions when I was a teenager. I don’t know if It would have made any difference. Eventually I came to the conclusion that all things were transitory, but another thing always takes its place. And would you really want things to last forever? it sounds stale and stagnant.
And this is the problem. We as a culture shield children from the “real world” and never tell them someone close to them had died, or that the dog didn’t go to live on grandma’s farm. Why don’t we tell them? I wouldn’t know. nobody tried to convince me that santa was real. I got presents from my mother. or any other kind of absurd nonsense we subject children to. “Oh, they shouldn’t see that” and why on earth not? So children grow up in these little bubbles. and suddenly they cross the magic line of adulthood.
gone is the rite of passage that once marked the transition to adulthood. And suddenly like these “adults” are hit with reality. having been shielded their entire lives, they are not ready for it. Big surprise. And most people end up with an unbalanced view of the world. Suddenly you can’t see the good anymore. only the bad.
So these people walk into a forest. There has just been a storm. Some trees have been knocked down, but the sun is still shining. What do they see first? The bare trees? the fallen trees littering the ground. And they think to themselves (I know I did) the world is falling apart. Everything beautiful is always being destroyed.
The flowers always wither. People grow old and die. Girls are only pretty for a few short years, and become old. oh, how terrible! Yet there will always be more to take their place. And so It is the same with ‘depression’. People can become broken. but it is an ailment of the spirit and not of the mind. well, actually it is many things. let me break it down for you.
First is the Pineal Gland. the place where melatonin is produced. in most people it is “calcified” for various reasons. and not only this, but the sinus system is usually full of gunk in most people. and this causes depression and lethargy also. I know mine is playing up at the minute. my ears have been playing up for months now.
So what can you do about that? well… I present to you the nose kettle! (or that’s what I call it anyway) it is actually called a neti pot. it has been around for a long time. Our ancestors knew what they were doing, believe it or not.
But hey, it’s a thing endorsed by science now. It’s almost like they were not primitive, eh? 🙂 I did get one of those but have yet to use it much. really should. *runs off* okay. I’m actually doing it. just need to wait for it to cool down. The truth is that when our bodies are filled with all of this junk it affects us.
Eating well, Sleeping well, Getting enough exercise. Having good company. and most of all, not being afraid to be upset! There is nothing wrong with being sad. But I see so many people who look like they are about to burst into tears at any time. But they are holding it back. I have learned to cry. It took months. But it is well worth it.
Emotions not dealt with create a great deal of strain on the body. and on the mind. stress, anxiety you name it. everyone gets scared. there is nothing wrong with that. everyone gets sad too. But that doesn’t mean we are broken and need fixing. Maybe we just need a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on?
Who knows? Keep well, all of you.