It seems I was right…

Hello.I’m sure most of you have figured out I’m ‘transgendered’ by now. I’m not sure if you know I’m still living as male. We sadly haven’t made much progress in this area. Though we are starting to make some headway.I’m a little odd as I’m sure you’ve figured out by now. Some might even say I’m  ‘reality impaired’. Or just plain delusional.

I said a few months ago I was going to try some things considered impossible by conventional wisdom. Like say, Changing ones bone structure. I decided to focus on my face because let’s be honest, that and your voice are more important to passing than anything else. So, Why Am I writing this? Well. Someone said something to me today, something I’ve been waiting to hear for a long time. Okay, So I’ve had a pretty lousy week. I’ve been crying. I’ve hardly eaten nor slept. A lady that comes around every saturday (today)  was understandably worried that I’d lost weight. And I’m like: “No, my shirts are always baggy, don’t worry!” But no, they said they meant my face. They  said my face was ‘smaller’, that “the very structure had changed”. Oh, how long I’ve been wishing to hear those words. To be proven right! Sure, they trailed off about other things afterwards, but I heard what I needed to hear. Sure, I was fairly certain looking through photos and staring in the mirror, But I wanted someone who had absolutely no idea what I’m doing to say it.  I’m starting to think I’m in a hilarous situation where I’m managed to feminize the bones (to a degree) but not the rest of it. And I’m worried about what it’s doing to my teeth. hmm… Like my complexion, fat distribution, and facial hair. etc. so I look a little strange. I did get my eyebrows reshaped though! Rather painful process, that is. Funny pink wax and all. Ps: I love my new eyebrows. hehe.

What on earth am I on about? Oh, sorry. I forget myself sometimes. There is no link that binds us all any longer. So, Perhaps you should go look at this older post of mine. I believe it will explain where I’m coming from. Sadly I’ve made a right mess of the process. What exactly is it? It’s a process that essencially is an offshoot from hypnosis.

Without starting to explain the occult and supernatural origins of hypnosis (they insist it isn’t, naturally), suffice to say there is absolutely nothing scientific about the practice. Also, keep in mind that places like wikipedia are mind-boggingly biased towards the scientific community. Never mind, I can’t help it: Almost everything we are taught about it today is simply untrue. Also known as Mesmerism, or animal magnetism, it has roots in the ancient egyptian mystery schools, among other places. The physiological explanations for the phenomenon are utterly inadequate and it never ceased being a form of ‘magic’ as far as I understand it. But seeing as Attempting to fully explain will require me to write an entire book on the subject, shall we continue? Perhaps you think that is a load of rubbish. Fine, I’m not asking you to believe me. Just know that I never lie. I’m incapable of it.

 

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