Say, I’ve doing some thinking. Actually, I’m always thinking. At speeds that would probably horrify most people if they could just peer into my mind. Good thing you can’t. I probably wouldn’t like that very much. (also I miiight go on tangents I’m so sorry) So, Where to begin? I was diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome pretty young, and I guess I’m not “normal”.
But the thing is, is there something wrong with me? Do I need to be cured? Am I in-capable of tying my own shoelaces? Well, judging from the fact that I have a blog, Probably not? (though it took way longer than It should. knots are weird.) So, I guess the thing is this: The mental health bible, as I like to call it, got updated recently. What it it? The DSM- 5? Yeah, that’s the one. So, I guess I have have a personal stake in this. Mainly, because I kinda liked being an aspie. And hell, I’m going to keep on calling myself that, screw them. I don’t have a Developmental disorder, I have a problem called I’m ‘dis-orderly’ and call them out on their nonsense and tell people how it is. Instead of having an epiphany that maybe we just think the truth is the truth, we clearly don’t understand how we are supposed to behave! Okay, I’m getting off topic.
So, let me make something absolutely clear: I’ve been one to dabble in ‘conspiracies’ in the past, and sometimes still do. So, That brings me to vaccines. And I guess the insinuation of people claiming that it is caused by those things is that I’m somehow broken and damaged goods? I guess I feel like ‘autism’ fits into 2 categories:
- Brain Impairment/damage
And I guess my question is, who gets to decide which is which? where do we draw the line? I don’t really know. But It seems as if the traits for ‘aspergers’ run in my family (fathers side. Don’t know my mothers parents well also, dead.). My father isn’t ‘diagnosed’, but I’ll eat my hat if anyone tries to tell me he doesn’t fit the bill. But that doesn’t surprise me.
My grandfather, on the other hand, is where it intrigues me. He has traits like, say: obsession with ritual and routine, It has to be this milk, that butter. Actually, remember a rather sad if funny conversation. He was tasked with getting “hot choc” on the shopping list. So, what does he do? Finds a hot chocolate with those exact words written on it. That’s just an example. My sleep addled brain fails me. 😦
Now, why the quotation marks? Well, isn’t it just a set of personality traits that society has deemed undesirable? We have disorders like “Oppositional Defiant disorder”, for example. Oh, we don’t just blindly obey an adult because we were told to? What if we think your orders make no sense? Ugh. I hate that people don’t understand that. It’s not about being defiant or authority or and of that nonsense! I just don’t follow systems I perceive to be broken. Hell, and they won’t even let people fix them.
Oh, and here’s one of my favorite ones: When people act like anything I’m saying is somehow irrelevant or irrational because I’m an aspie. Like how I refuse to drink fluoridated water, for example. I’m just a fixated freak, apparently. (oh, It’s for my teeth? what’s that, google? dental/skeletal fluorosis? flouride is bad for my teeth as well? Give me a break. It’s poison. Why should I back down on that, just because it’s not accepted opinion, or that people will levy meaningless labels like “Conspiracy theorist” at me? Perhaps Our only failing is that this world is mad, and we call it out for being that way. Am I bad at talking? yeah. I guess. But I think the real problem is that I tell it like it is. And that scares people.