I had my gender appointment!

Hey guys. Sorry about this one. I can’t seem to help myself. Anyway, I think if I don’t I’m going to inevitably start gushing about it to my family. And that would be kinda.. bad? Or maybe not? I don’t really know. The point is, I’m excited, and I wanna share it with you. Also, I couldn’t sleep all night! Oh. My. Goodness! I’m running on willpower.

Anyway, I saw A psychologist who deals with gender dysphoria. This time went wayy better than the last one. I don’t know how to explain it. I have this 6th sense about people. This was the ‘right’ person. The last one wasn’t. Call it intuition, a gut feeling, But It’s guided me through life quite wonderfully thus far. Anyway, This Guy was great. I think I rambled wayyy to much, but yeah. Opps. I’m sleep deprived and a little bit off my rocker? I guess it can’t be helped. 2 hours sleep isn’t really enough.

I don’t really feel the need to get into the nitty gritty of it. I just told them a bunch of stuff. Some of it is kinda dark. And I managed to keep my mouth shut about some of the weirder stuff. For now, at least. 🙂 After all, I have to have another 2 sessions, a fortnight apart. Also, they sent me an e-mail about hormone replacement about all the risks and all that and want me to sign it (or maybe that’s just there?). I hate it how I waver so easily. Especially when I was already aware of literally everyone on the sheet! Grrr.I was freaking out though.  But as the sensible voice in my head says I’m not going to turn back now. This is a path we must take. The consequences don’t matter.

Maybe I’m supposed to be doing something with my life at the moment. But to be honest I just don’t have the energy. Or It bores me. It’s maddening. I’m stuck in this strange kind of fog.  All these things I want to do, And I can’t seem to concentrate.Anyway, I’ll keep up the act. No use showing your real feelings to other people, now is there? Don’t be silly.

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8 thoughts on “I had my gender appointment!

      1. I wanted to say you are always a women to me. I do not recall those replies. Were they a long time ago? I stopped reading many blogs I used to follow and do not recall. It wasn’t because the replies.

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      2. I wanted to say you are always a woman to me. Do what you must to feel better, but know the part that is eternal is already feminine.

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  1. Sounds to me like you ARE doing something with your life – a massive thing, so no wonder you don’t have energy for much else.
    Hope it all goes as smoothly as such things can for you, and that you find peace and contentment (well, as far as such things are possible in this 3D world) as a result.

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    1. I think I needed to hear that. 🙂 Even if it sounds like what My “higher self” has been saying to me lately.
      I hope it goes well too! Ah, It’s a long road.
      One thing at a time, I guess?
      Thanks for that. It means alot.

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